Read a book " Apocalypse 2012".....it gives me this sense of urgency just to want to cherish the supposed "remaining time". Lately I kept on seeing this quote, literally everywhere..it's like the mass media of broacasting " we aint' got much time left"- "Today is a gift, that's why it's call present"......this is so true, but how many of us can actually enjoy this very moment? i know I will, sitting on a beach, sipping on pina colada. But this kind of joy does not last permenately. And how in the world can we ever learn to perceive things in life as the most joyful and precious moment each second?

 

 

I've been bitter, lonely for a long long time. And mostly it's all within myself. It's even hard just to call a person up for no particular reason. And I know, I am the only person I need to overcome.

 

 

 

Am I happy with myself?

 

(妈的, 简体字....)

 

 

心软?

 

not exactly...

my intention never changed.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have never been so intimate with myself.....just like now... 

 

In contrary to about half a year ago....Everyday, there were numerous people surrounding me, hysterical laughters, and lots of stories to hear.

 

I think i miss that, but since i feel like i've been abandoned by these "hapiness", I'm relunctant to admit to anyone and refuse to reach out...

 

It's not like i've never tried. Shorty after I stepped into my current relationship, I still called everybody up, wanting to arrange trips, get-togethers..but now it seems like i'm forgotten.

 

 

Could he be the reason? Now that I look back. All he had (well, majority of the time) was the shittiest face around my friends. Annoying phone calls throught out the entire event, and interogations when i get home...

 

 

Subconsciously I gave up trying to hang around with my friends due to all the hassles that he'd caused.

 

 

Too many people wil annoy me, but just myself I can't balance within..

I'm not complaining ....sigh.....just wish there's one...just one

 

 

 

I wish you are here

 

 

I'm suppose to work on some winback invoices/renewal batches...instead, here I am.....

 

Just never be able to resist the temptation of chating/surfing online....

 

 

alright...

 

BACK TO WORK!